We are hoping and praying again because I'm pregnant. Less than a month and a half from when we lost Snowflake we conceived another baby. Baby sprout is due around November 10-12. We could have a 11/11/11 baby :) I'm 7 weeks pregnant. I won't lie it's been much more difficult this time to be excited. I've had to work to be excited and work to have hope. But I have had some moments of excitement. The one thing that is totally different is I have guarded myself from the medical community making predictions about what may or not happen. They have done a beta Hcg level 2 consecutive series. I did not want to know the result. I told them all I want to know is if I'm pregnant or not. After the last beta series they told me my level is high enough for an ultrasound. So yesterday they did an impromptu ultrasound, squeezed me in. It was nice to not have to wait a week ahead worrying about what will be. They handled it nicely by suprising me with it. And Sprouts heart rate was 136. Thank God!! And measured 6 weeks 6 days, right on schedule. It was a relief but its sort of weird how this time I don't have a lot of doubt. Maybe it's cuz I don't want to stress myself out and I want to stay positive that everything is ok. I know how adrenalin can depleted progesterone which isn't good when you have a history of low progesterone anyway. I'm taking 200 mg of progesterone twice a day started this the day of my positive HPT.
We asked my three year old after the ultrasound if he knew what was in my tummy and he said "Peanut Butter and Jelly." I think he came up with this when the doctor asked for Jelly (the stuff the squirt on the ultrasound equipment lol.) He was quite interested in this request since jelly is one of his favorite foods lol.
Physically I'm blissfully sick which I don't mind at all cuz it gives me reassurance. In the afternoon I can hardly keep my eyes open. My boobies feel bruised. My head spins and my eyes don't keep up with what I'm doing half the time. All really good signs in my book.
I've stayed off google and the blogs to keep my thoughts from wondering into fear. I'm sorry I haven't read or provided support to anyone in quite a while. I feel like I need a break right now. I'm sure I'll be able to get back to it eventually.
My next decision I have to make is whether to stay with my doctor that I love and who has held my hand thru losing Gracie and Snowflake but she only has prevlidges at our local hospital which isn't a level 2 facility. I'm considering switching to a doctor who could deliver at a level 2 hospital 38 miles away. Every doctor I've dealt with besides my current doctor has been another nightmare for me so I hate to switch. Anyway, I so appreciate those of you who have stuck with me through thick and thin. I appreciate any positive thoughts and prayers you send my way.